Today got me thinking about alot,
"My inspiration has run dry"
as the wise Natalie Imbruglia once did say
Today was a real vision of this.
My inspiration for people has run dry. I am finding it hard to cope without my best friend- even though she is standing right infront of me. Its like ive become invissible to people arround me and they dont even realise that there doing it. Its so hard!
Why is she ignoring me so much??? why cant she see how much she is hurting me? WHY WHY WHY????
Why are friendships so hard to work at?
Why is life so hard to work at?
ARGH!
Im struggling to find motivation for the simplest things in my life, things that 9 months ago i wouldnt of had a problem in doing- why when you get older, life gets shittier and shittier????
Sometimes i wish i could go back and change who i have become, to become someone i want to be, someone who i would look up to, to feel proud in saying "Hi, my names Eilish, whats yours?"
Ive always felt that if i was to just dissappear from my life, would anyone really notice? And I mean REALLY notice
No, i didnt think so
Eilish
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